It's nice to hear from you katie and I'm truly sorry to hear about your situation. Kudos on being positive. I had a terrible year in 2009 also, it was the worst year of my life for various reasons, also including a death in my family, but it's important to remember that things always get better. For every dark day, there's a brighter one ahead so we must always try to keep that in mind! Hope you'll stick around if you feel up to it. x