today i was at work and it just hit me....my youth is nearly gone....i'm 20 years old and i'm going to turn 21 this july and it sucks....well, i'm going to like being able to legally buy alcohol and not catch anymore underage drinking charges....but it's crazy to look in the mirror and say to myself...dam i'm a grown ass man when it feels just like yesterday when i was in my early teens running wild not giving a fuck without a care in the world....because back then i used to just live in the moment and wouldn't care about the consequences as long as i was having fun....but now i find myself fully thinking things through and doing what i need to do not just what i want to do...and i guess that's the brighter side of getting older is that you get wiser...but those days were fun and i would give anything to back and do it all over again....because i'm almost 21 and before i know it i'll be almost 30 then 40 then next thing i know i'll be a senior citizen wondering where the fuck the time went...and i hate it and i would do anything to slow up time to enjoy the last few years of my youth....i look in the mirror and i look older but sometimes i don't feel older...sometimes i still feel like the same teenager that wants to just hang out with his friends, somke weed all the time, do stupid things and get into trouble...but i know that can never be cause i'm getting older and i have more responsibilities...but that still doesn't change the fact that i want to relive the good ol' days...
what do ya'll think? does anybody else feel the same way?
what do ya'll think? does anybody else feel the same way?