you must separate though. there's online reactions to online actions that have real-life ramifications. telling you to fuck off because you're such a fucking nerd or loser wouldn't, telling you all the moles in your face makes you look like an animal would.
verbally standing up for yourself is serious within our little sphere here. let's make one thing very clear, maybe it's not true for everyone and i can only speak for myself, but it would amaze me a lot if someone could be taught something about themselves on here. i know myself better than all of you. no one here can teach me anything about myself as a person. no one goes around sporting all their negative personality traits, but that doesn't mean they don't know about them. case in point, when i make long posts i do so very consciously because of experiences i've had that any of you people might not understand. i'm not too stupid to understand what's geeky and negative about it, i am too stubborn to bow to somebody else's perception of what is good and what is bad though.
what i'm getting at is that you can't hurt me unless you get personal, and even then, you're not breaking me news. chances are that even the worst diss someone could throw at me here, i would have heard from someone else before. that's as serious as it can get. if someone told me something about myself that i didn't already know, i probably really needed to hear it anyway.
back to what i talked about earlier, we have this little community here. within that community i can be funny, excited, pissed. i go here daily, if someone causes a minor inconvenience that still is there it will be brought to my attention for the short time of a whole day i spend here. if something very cool happens, i'll be very happy, but confined by the fact that i'm still on an online messageboard. i'll leave that at that and anybody who doesn't understand it should read a children's book to gain a level of being deep. when i'm playing a game i'm happy when i win and angered when i lose. when i quit playing those emotions are only valid within the little subordinate world of video games that has no relevance in my real life. i don't go off at someone because i just got killed by a monster in a game, and i don't get a self-esteem boost by killing at least three monsters in a very short frame of time. apply this same logic to the board and its on-goings. i diss someone but i then get out of my computer chair and it's not even part of the thoughts i'm processing that concern my day-to-day life, and my current day's schedule.
that's not what he was talking about though. he presumed that because two people were going at each other, it was serious. i'm never as unserious as i am when i throw shit at others on here, and there is nothing i care less for than the things i'm actually saying to them. nothing means less for me in my world than those things. but he's saying he left because things got so serious with the disses. i beg to differ that the more time someone spends making a fool of someone else, the more bullshit it is. was i serious when i spent ten minutes finding, downloading and installing photoshop to put a red cross over the map of georgia? you can choose to think so if you like, but come on. time is time, no one here should claim to be some superimportant individual. time is not money to anyone here so why take a highroad like i'm wasting my precious time when i spend it mocking other people, when fact is, most people here kill a lot more time in front of the tv or pc than they should, or work dead-end jobs, or go out drinking, or do other completely useless shit that's only more important from their point of view. what about gaining a higher understanding and seeing your own bullshit. i'm a fat lazy dork and i was freed by accepting that fact. doesn't mean i don't work hard or do good things, i'm just not sporting that holier than thou attitude just because someone's doing something i don't like to do.