Big Easy said:
I am going through the worst phase of my life right now and have been since mid-february. I'm trying hard to get past it. That's why I've been posting here again. It clears my head. I really haven't felt like going out much. There was a time where it was getting worse than the day before each day. I thought my life was over cause it just kept getting worse. I never thought I'd get better. I didn't want to do anything but sleep because when I slept I felt and thought nothing and it was the best I'd feel. I'm slowly getting better I hope I'm over it. Sometimes I go back to the root of my problems, which I choose not to discuss here, and sometimes I just talk to myself like Eric, stop trippin man. Anyway, how did you get over your depression?
I'm usually an upbeat guy. I of course have problems like everyone else, but I have never been depressed or even THAT sad in my life until now. At one point my depression got so bad that it was showing at work even when I was thought I was doing my best to hide it. The boss was kind enough to not even ask me what was wrong--just asked me if I wanted to take time off and I did, althought that really didn't help afterall.
Sorry to hear that. And I know EXACTLY waht you're talking about. I even made a thread last year about my depression.
I had a long period where I didn't want to exist. Nothing seemed to go right, I didn't wanna party, or be in a company with more then one people. I always tried to find the root to my problems and I ALWAYS ended up with the thought that "there is something wrong with me". Eventually you hate it, cause you've become someone you don't like. Cause I'm a very positive person and going through that transaction and changing into a dark person was something I saw as a failure in my life.
My friends tried to help me by doing stuff, but it only got worse cause I could "realize" that I'm such a fuck up. The only thing I wanted to do was to stay home and just lay down. Things got worse cause people around me could get offended by me. I became a very hot-headed person who couldn't tolerate a slightly argument. Then I disliked the way I became and I digged a deeper hole thinkin how fucked up I am, going through all that changed into worse. So I ended up criticising myself all the time. I could never see a bright light in the near future. I didn't even think of any future as I couldn't, I only thought about today, how to NOT think of what's wrong with me etc.
Anyway, I just want to say that I feel what you're going through and my ADVICE is that DON'T try to "cure" this alone. Cause it'll take time (for me, it took 2 years and Im guessing you don't want to be depressed 2 years, do you?). Friends can help alot, but they can't relate if they aren't in the same state. For me it was worse, cause I could become "jealous" when I saw how happy they could get.
So what you should do is find out if there is a contact group of people who suffer/ed depression. Often they have these small groups where they meet and talk with eatch other about experiencing it. It will feel good to hear that you're not alone to go what you go through.

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