saltynuts said:
I checked several sources in the last day or two and came up with this.
- Personality changes, anxiety, anger and hatred of all things
- Fear and rejection
- Felling lost, loss of identity
- Hiding from family and friends, loss of communication
- Feeling of isolation, feels like nobody can understand me
- Loss of control
- I feel like I've been seduced by Evil
- Insanity
- Hopelessness
- Lack of forgiveness
- Lack of concern for my life
- I have never confessed my sins
- I view my life as a waste, thoughts of death
- No good
- Loss of memory, blackouts
- Screaming obscenities
- Depression
- Hostility towards religion(s), God(s)
- I think I'm possessed
In short, you are! Not in the literal sense, but feelings of hoplesness do come from an 'evil' source. The evil could be attributed to a number of things. I think
maybe this could be your 'nafs'. there's no english word for 'nafs'. but as a innate disposition of your soul you are very resilient. Its our nature to be resilient and hopeful. to lose hope is against your nature
also, if you are really going through that then try honey

. keep listneing. Honey has historically been held in esteemed status in many civilisations. If you apply honey to a wound then your wound will heal miraculously much quicker than any other treatment there is at the moment, this is because there's antimicrobial agents contained within honey and they work much better than other anti-biotic creams and lotions u could buy from your pharmacy.
honey is said by many communities I have visited to have a cure for everything within it, you only have to know how to harness ti's medicinal properties.
continuing, im trying to remain pragmatic, I don't want to delve into superstitions and articles of faith. Have some honey with warm milk and it should give you masses of natural energy, it supports the blood formation procces and will give your brain, which is the largest consumer of sugar, plenty to help support it and keep it functioning to the full maximum capabilities. the extra energy should make you feel happeir and more active. then get out, get some air and meet up with friends. it should help your depression. a lot of your feelings such as fear and anger probably come from your depression