Lately...

[raywaters11]

Okay so I've got a lot of shit on my mind lately, and instead of talking it out with people I know, or going to therapy, or doing anything that a normal fucking person would do, I am going to talk about it to strangers on the internet. For some reason, that is more comfortable.

I don't know how to describe how I feel lately. I am mad a lot, I am depressed even more often than that, and I am apathetic towards EVERYTHING lately. If a million elderly women die in a tragic accident while doing good deeds for the needy, I wouldn't give a fuck. Honestly.

Drinking is becoming more and more of a pillow. Three days in a row now, which may not sound like a lot to most people, but I have been HAMMERED for three days. And not days I'm off work. I never drink two days in a row, but I am on a streak now.

Honestly I think it stems from the break-up I just went through. Idk why, but I want her back so bad. It's so fucked up. Seeing her makes it easier to get over her for some reason, it's weird. I think about her, and I just think damn, I want her back. She did me hella wrong, and I think that has something to do with me wanting her back. Unresolved shit. I still have feelings for her, unlike every other girl I've ever fallen out with.

And I'm always into it with my mom. Parents are divorced, so I never talk to my dad, which doesn't bother me. I put up the walls between him and myself. Idk why my mom and I always argue, but it's constant. I don't trust anyone anymore... My best friends, from Kindergarten, I won't tell them shit I used to tell them because I can't trust them.

I'm always wanting to fight someone now, also. And I am not a fighter, I think it's ridiculous to fight after high school. But here I am, drinking, longing to fight, depressed bigger than fuck, and paranoid at the world. I'm not sure about the reasoning of making this thread, but it made sense at the time. Anyone ever feel similar? Like, fuck the world and everyone in it.

[raywaters11]

And I don't want to date anyone either for some reason. Sex doesn't mean shit to me right now. I've had it once in like, four months, and I'm not even looking to get it. More apathy maybe?

[SolidLightObject]

You just got a new car. I noticed you were putting it down b/c it was a V6 and b/c it was white. It seems like you didn't even enjoy it.

Dude, you're in a pretty good position to be happy. You might just be spoiled.

Stop drinking and clear your head up. Friends can never be truly trusted so when you list it here, your using it as something that as bad things, but its just bringing you down.

Get into reality and see that things are not as bad as they seem, you just need to learn to accept those things. (arguing with your mom; etc.)

By drinking you are putting yourself down because you are afraid of rejection (acceptance), possibly from new people. You put yourself down because its like a defense mechanism, you make yourself worse than you are, that way you wont suffer from rejection (instead you put yourself in a position to not talk to anyone). You just drink to feel sorry for yourself in general (which makes it worse).

Just take it as you know its not going to work out with that girl, so look at it positively, your didn't waste a bunch of years on your life for some dumb hoe. Enjoy yourself, you got a mustang, and your sexy.

A part of it maybe the weather too. You cant truly enjoy your mustang by cruising in it..etc..

Just find new shit to do around the house. Instead of drinking play some fucking video games.

And if you have masturbated in the last 4 months, than your lying to yourself, you want sex, but you are just afraid of getting rejected. Males tend to think that sex is not an emotional thing for us because society tells us. FUCK society.

Be yourself. Drinking is not you, you pussy ass faggot. (Proof in my signature)

[(SS)Sebastian]

Okay so I've got a lot of shit on my mind lately, and instead of talking it out with people I know, or going to therapy, or doing anything that a normal fucking person would do, I am going to talk about it to strangers on the internet. For some reason, that is more comfortable.

Its more comfortable, because no one here knows you and you can turn off the internet whenever you want to without having to fear that someone of us will confront you with the stuff youve said on here in person.

Im not really able to judge what you should do with just so few things i know about your life but one thing is for sure: Stop drinking you fool!

[raywaters11]

Originally Posted by Shadows

You just got a new car. I noticed you were putting it down b/c it was a V6 and b/c it was white. It seems like you didn't even enjoy it.

Nooooo, I love the car lol. It is so fuckin' mean. Of course there are some bits and pieces I'd like to upgrade, but if the car was perfect, I'd be bored.

Enjoy yourself, you got a mustang, and your sexy.

Lmfao, and I'm the faggot, eh?

Originally Posted by Sebastian

Its more comfortable, because no one here knows you and you can turn off the internet whenever you want to without having to fear that someone of us will confront you with the stuff youve said on here in person.

Im not really able to judge what you should do with just so few things i know about your life but one thing is for sure: Stop drinking you fool!

i didnt drink tonight! lol. i'm still the same asshole as before, only with less headaches.

all true about it being more comfortable because less personal. thank god for you strangers.

[SolidLightObject]

Originally Posted by raywaters11

Nooooo, I love the car lol. It is so fuckin' mean. Of course there are some bits and pieces I'd like to upgrade, but if the car was perfect, I'd be bored.



Lmfao, and I'm the faggot, eh?





i didnt drink tonight! lol. i'm still the same asshole as before, only with less headaches.

all true about it being more comfortable because less personal. thank god for you strangers.

I was trying to make u feel better asswhole.

[raywaters11]

lol well it made me laugh sweetheart, so thanks.

[Da_Funk]

If you're already depressed, drinking by yourself isn't a good thing. Alcohol is a depressant and will only make you feel worse, so take some uppers

You sound like you really just need to have a night out to relieve your stress. Call up some of your friends, get fucked up, hit up the club, and try and pull some women.

[raywaters11]

i dont drink alone, i drink with a small group [2 or 3 friends, usually at least two females] of friends.

yeah i think i need the night out too. new years is comin up. gonna go bar hopping with a real close female friend. we are strictly friends tho, would never date, but maybe a bang session after a few beers, or she could help me pull some ass. ive never been to a bar before so this should be fun.

thinkin i'll just get a motel room and get from bar to bar via taxi.

[Da_Funk]

Originally Posted by raywaters11

i dont drink alone, i drink with a small group [2 or 3 friends, usually at least two females] of friends.

yeah i think i need the night out too. new years is comin up. gonna go bar hopping with a real close female friend. we are strictly friends tho, would never date, but maybe a bang session after a few beers, or she could help me pull some ass. ive never been to a bar before so this should be fun.

thinkin i'll just get a motel room and get from bar to bar via taxi.

Man fuck that. Hanging out with girls is only so much fun, especially when you're not hooking up with any of em.

Your a guy, sometimes you just need to hang out with other guys and get up to some stupid shit that only guys can.