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Originally Posted by Elmira
Are you telling me things have a momentum of their own? Sure I agree with that, I'll never disagree with that, but that doesn't discredit my point. I still think what you say is subject to change. You will very likely not hold the same opinion of yourself, bad or good, in 5 years time. Or sooner than that time. And if it's not a juvenile conceit, it is naivety.
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Nah, I just meant that you seem to be the kind of person that sort of shrugs things off like that. "Meh, this is just juvenile conceit, fuck it cause I ain't respecting it". I'm the exact opposite to you. I'm the open person that will gladly speak of his flaws. I just don't care. The pro to that is the freedom of not having to put on a mask some times. I can be me in any way shape or form and people will expect it because I was always like this. The con is that I'm sure the prejudice could create potential problems I haven't thought of (extreme example: some guy overhears me talking about my weaknesses, and a year later i'm interviewing for a job and it's him doing it).
I most likely won't see myself the same way in five years. But to see myself in any way what so ever, I will have to have seen myself as something in the past as well. My evaluation of my own personality is an ongoing dynamic thing. Imagine a waterballoon, and when you push it the shape changes but the mass stays the same. I apply a sort of similar thought concept to how I see my own personality. The merit of whatever I am feeling right now maybe lies within the ability to use it as a pointer in the future, when I am looking back on my life to try and make sense of things.
So I guess maybe I felt like my pride was insulted. Because I some times pursue emotions that
you would otherwise likely label as "juvenile conceit" for the purpose of doing just that for a change. To not be the static, professional, serious, considerate and patient person I have to be to maintain a name for myself, but to just be human. I do this because I find it to be recreational. So yeah, it was the ego thing mostly. We're just opposites on this matter. And that implication you were fearing, no, I don't have this impression that you are an emotion-less siren or anything. I see why I give that impression though, it's all just because I'm self-centered when I express my thoughts.
Lastly I just wanted to say that you now gave some insight into how you think, so in a way, your two responses were probably exactly what masta was looking for. Sounds like you've thought about this a great deal, and they are interesting thoughts. Also, seeing as how you're an artist, I can sense your obvious philosophical nature
Edit: btw, i'm good with language too. english is my second though, i'm better in my first :p
